She/her - He/him (AFAB)
I´m omnisexual and probably aceflux or graysexual too, im still questioning.
I´ve been exploring the gender rabbit hole since summer of 2021 i think, and even though I still don´t know anything about it. it I´ve tried out using LOTS of gender identities (like, genderqueer, azurgirl, girlflux, paragirl, demigirl, schrodigirl, boyflux, paraboy, demiboy, schrodiboy, adhdgender,bigenderfluix and even more that i don´t even remember now) and none seems to stick out for me. I hate it when i start questioning my gender again because i know no matter what i do i always end up with more questions than answers. All i know my gender is probably affected by my condition and that it may change alongside with my mood and mental health, because for example, i tend to feel more masculine-aligned when im feeling low. (Like affectugender and sentigender). I feel primarily a femenine-alligned but also a little bit masculine-alligned too. Also i do not like very much my gender identity to have the word girl as a suffix, for me it feels off, so i prefer the -boy suffix, i feel more comfortable with it, so i think i might be a nanoboy too? Honestly idk.
Also I always think no matter what I do or how hard i´ll try people will never understand me and my gender issues, so coming out so i will probably struggle a lot telling people IRL. (I´ve only told my best friend who is FTM).
What should I do?
Is there something like cassgender but implying hate towards it? Cuz i´m starting to hate my gender more and more. -srs/